change | 27.05.17

I hate change. I absolutely despise the thought of things not being how I've got used to them being. I get so comfortable and safe in that bubble of whatever it is that I can't handle it when it gets taken away. I hate change, and yet right now all I can see is miles and piles of change that stretches out beyond me and I am scared. I have finished college, a place that I have been for two years. I have never changed, grown up, and experienced so much as I did in the two years that I was there, and I don't feel ready to move on to something else as the person that I am now. I've still got exams left, and then I don't know. I don't know what's happening with the rest of my life. I don't know where I'm going to be in September, and I'm going to have to meet new people and make new friends even though I've just got comfortable in the circle that I'm in. We all went to the pub yesterday, and it was the happiest I have felt in a very long time. But today I have woken up and I'm afraid and upset. I don't know what the rest of my life is going to be, and I am scared.